May 12, 2005

Finally updating here again. I was just in a spell where I was lazy, slack, and I'm by no means out of the spell now. However, it's just some stuff nagging in my insides.

I didn't like Chen Lili's attitude during dance. Firstly, she made it sound as if our class deserved more stringent judging, secondly, she is obviously biased against certain people (although I do agree some people deserve worse), lastly, the marks are not important. I wanted to raise the point that I did not deserve the A because I can't dance, simple as that. But I thought I suffered enough, a measly alphabet on a paper would help.

It's as if every teacher is antagonizing against our class now. Twelvers, HLS. She has spent so much time and effort defending our class, trying to be lenient but when she becomes fierce, people don't spare a thought for her. Let's face it, there are people who consistently do their work, others blatently don't. It is because of this majority of people who don't that create such a bad image of the class. I mean, yeah the teachers are wrong. But aren't we too?

HLS is transferring to another school or stop teaching all together because of the hurt we dealt her. She feels all the anger rising overshawdowing the minimal regret in students.

Stop it. Stop hating the world. Although I agree it is useless and worthless, does detaching yourself from it help? Not at all. You can lose hope about the world, but never lose hope about yourself. I'm a conflicting person, a realist and idealist at the same time.

Dammit, human psychology and the warps.

free falling.